50/365 - “Come as you are, as you were…”

I find some posts triggering, they make me feel unwell and for a long time I blamed myself for that. I thought that feeling like that made me a bad person. 

It’s hard to imagine what a teenager or a child can feel like, if it has this effect on an adult. I am not talking about celebrities, they have no cure. 

Pictures that send a clear message - society only accepts perfection and happiness. It’s hard to see any balance between the good and the bad. It’s like we are avoiding the whole idea of humanity. 

And we wonder why kids grow up to be vain… 

Everyone else seems to love it, what’s wrong with me?

I am surrounded by incredibly strong women that at times seem fearless in voicing their own views.

A friend once said, nonchalantly, that she sometimes feels antisocial. And just like that she helped me realise that there is nothing wrong with that.

Another friend said that she doesn’t follow a particular page because she found it triggering and that was enlightening. She gave voice to my emotions, because I would have felt inadequate to say it out loud.

It is easy to embrace the good, but what do we do with this whole other side of us? The not so bubbly, darker one.

I understand now that accepting a negative thought or feeling can be a huge relief! I don’t have to do anything about it, just accept that it is there. Rejecting it will lead to major frustrations.

Let it be... When I accept it, I can easily detach from it and I can look at it from the outside. The result is that the feeling begins to unfold, It becomes clearer and I can then ask myself without guilt: “Where is this coming from?”

And this is where you begin to unravel your true self… it starts with accepting both the good and the bad, down the wormhole and back to the surface, but stronger than before.

We got this!