3/365 - I decided I am enough and everything changed
12 August 2009
I must have changed my mind about a hundred times before coming to London. I remember friends stopping by our place in the days before or going out in the evenings, having drinks, having a laugh…
“What are you doing? Are you crazy?”
But you see, I knew this was going to work, because I had decided that there was no other option.
Love who you are even if you have no idea who that is, embrace the journey!
“Who is your hero? My hero is myself in 10 years from now.”
This question annoys me because it comes up in many soul searching materials - “Whom do you want to be like?”. I got to the conclusion that either I am reading the wrong books or more likely, I might be struggling with personal examples. Now do not get me wrong I admire and love many people! I see how special and amazing they are, I want to learn from them and I appreciate them, but never enough to say I want to be like them.
It just does not sit right with me. To give up myself in the pursuit of being someone else? But I worked so hard to be this embarrassing, emotional, good, bad, funny, silly, smart…. pick and choose, depends on the day.
When I was around 4 years I went to the market with my mum on a crazy busy day. She told me to stay by the shopping bags and wait for her a little bit and of course I did not! I went all around my small hometown. I walked through the park, looked at the flowers, went into the Church, looked at the bride even stayed for the ceremony a little, it was lovely, can you blame me? Finished the day with a nice stroll down the Boulevard and then finally home, to a panicked, out-of-her-mind mum.
What a day! I felt free and happy!
Imagine having to say to that girl: “Kiddo, we had a blast, but you know what? From today you’ll just have to be like someone else!” “Someone else?” “Yep! Someone else! Do you know that woman from the corner shop, wanna be like her? Oh, come on! What about her husband?”
Joke aside, I think I like this woman, she has not figured out everything, but I will forgive her and be nice to her, even if at times it is a massive effort.
And instead of finding the person whose footsteps I would like to follow, I decided it is more important to focus on the person I want to be years from today, but it has to start with self love even in the most uncertain times so, this is what I preach…
Love yourself enough to visualise your best self, love yourself enough to come and train, enough to do the lift, enough to want to be stronger, better, faster, smarter! Just believe in yourself!
You know what? It might not be your best day, you will have to come back and try again, but my God! That journey that you are on, there is no one that can do it as good as you are doing it!
You got this!
